Best Behavior
I have been trying so long to be good
To cross my t’s and dot my i's
To sit quietly and not be seen
To notice when you’re getting angry
To tell the truth, even when I may get punished for it
I have been trying for so long
And I don’t feel any better about myself
For being good the way you defined it
I have been trying to be good
I gave up smoking after twenty years
But I still hit my vape from time to time
And tell myself that it is different
I have been trying to be good
Day after day, I try
But to tell you I’ve been good
Would only be a lie
I have done all the things I wasn’t supposed to do
I laid with angels in alleyways but survived cold nights
By sleeping with the devils and my demons, too
And now that I am alone, I am free
To do whatever I want to do
I was trying to be good
But good isn’t good enough anymore
I need to know I do my best everyday
Even when I’m a little whore
Because when I’m myself,
I know who I am
And there’s so much me to explore
So I don’t try to be good
Or bad
Or anything but me
Because there’s so much me to explore
And I dot all my teas and cross my eyes
To see what the future
Has in store